December 4, 2009 at 3:39 pm (Thoughts)
Tags: behavior, new apartment, move, anxiety, dinner party
I am all moved in to my new apartment. I have been since Monday, but I have been busy unpacking and trying to get my internet to work (internet thing is still in the works…).
I realize that I am having a lot of roommate anxiety. There is no reason to have it, because the girls are very friendly and welcoming. It is nice to feel at home in a place that you lay your head down at night. After two years of constant walking on eggshells at the other place, it might take a while to break the anxiety.
I’m planning on having a dinner party. I’m trying to decide what I want to make. I want to do it before I head up to Redding for the holiday.
<3
Leave a Comment
November 28, 2009 at 10:38 pm (Thoughts)
Tags: B.S. in Biochemistry, degree, earn, graduate, proud, school
Well it is official! I am legitimately a college graduate. I was having a hard time accepting it, partially because I petitioned to graduate late. I thought I would get my degree in March 2010, even though my course-work was complete. I was able to recognize that I have finally finished, because my degree came in the mail today. It went to my parent’s house, and I practically had to twist my mom’s arm to open it (well not literally, because I would have just opened it if I were there). Janessa made sure to send me the picture. 
Yes, that is a B.S. in Biochemistry. I am proud of it!
2 Comments
November 12, 2009 at 5:38 pm (Thoughts)
Tags: cleansing, heartache, self-respect, spiritual, trust, truth
I don’t keep very many people close to me. I would rather keep very few loyal people around me, instead of hundreds of ersatz friends. That is mainly why I never bought into the myspace or facebook set up. An interaction through a computer screen does not make someone your friend. I like to spend time with those who I care about, not have a tête-à-tête via text or twitter. Those synergies do not make a relationship.
In stating that, I honestly think it is time for me to do a spiritual cleanse of spurious strangers. I need to rid myself of those who are disrespecting me. Those who lie to me, cheat me, belittle me, etc. On occasion, I believe that my own self-respect is lacking, but then I realize that it is not the case. That is why I don’t keep very many people in close proximity. However, if I continue this way, I will be disrespecting myself.
I still do not think that is asking too much. These things go beyond simple explanations.
Leave a Comment
November 11, 2009 at 1:03 pm (Thoughts, Vent)
Tags: behavior, betrayal, change, good things, happiness, honesty, questions, selfish, small requests, truth, Vent
There is a tolerable quantity of cruelty that someone can take, but savagery due to dishonesty is more than one should have to grasp.
Dishonesty drains not only the person that is distributing it, but to those around them, who trust their every word. As wise ones have stated in the past, “you do not have to have a good memory if you just tell the truth”.
I have lied in my younger days, but quickly realized that those sorts of games were not worth playing. Prolonging someone’s torment because you “don’t want to hurt them” is selfish and wrong. I no longer see a reason to deceive the people I care about the most, because it really does not spare their feelings.
Not asking for much from those closest to me seems to have had an ill-effect. It has opened the doors for those people to step all over me, not to leave out those who say I deserve better. I will continue to trust, though, until I am proven otherwise. If that makes me a loser, or strange, or naive then so be it.
Something ingrained in me…to live my life as a truly good person.
1 Comment
November 5, 2009 at 11:45 am (Thoughts)
So I FINALLY found a new place to live. It has clearly been a long time coming.
The new place is in a the much nicer neighborhood of Valley Village. The entire complex is gorgeous, with plants and flowers, a pool, a communal bbq, on-site laundry, and a recreation room. Rent is more than reasonable, and I will have two new roommates (both of which were extremely friendly upon meeting).
And let me just say, the place is huge (I’m serious, it’s gi-nor-mous).
I cannot wait to move. There are so many good reasons for me to finally do this. Not only that, rent and utilities will be cheaper than here AND I don’t have to be afraid to use the kitchen.
Leave a Comment
