How did I jump from 2-4 views per day to 23? Interesting.
So, as expected, I’m feeling a bit dispirited. I feel like I have been building something (foundation, house, sky-scraper) for eons, just to have everything crash straight down to Earth. What you put out into the world is what the world will put out for you, so I suppose.
Karma crossed? Not this time. Just bad timing.
I guess this is what happens when you have it all figured out. The pretty girl is the lonely girl (this time I’m talking about inner beauty). I’m not going to let it get me. I will keep going, keep spreading my love for life. I’m entitled to be heartsick.
I’m entitled to continue smiling too. It is not hiding the pain, but masking it to something better. Life goes on. I could wait forever, and in fact, might be doing just that. But my smile will be there through and through.
So now I wait. Just waiting, ready for what life tosses my way.
And now some ramblings of what my heart would say, since my head normally takes over as in the above…
Too many times does my heart set heavy with the unknown. Too many times do I ponder the past. I sit like a wounded dog licking my wounds. Wounds so deep it is hard to hide. Regret leaves one to think of what has been. For each breath so much harder than the last. To hear the voice that makes one’s heart miss a beat. In the end it makes one wonder, shall this be my last heart beat.
